Hola New Life

and actually what i want more than most things is what i want to see and feel and taste and express, and all of those are always reachable even if they are not always real right now. i'm starting to understand people a lot better, and with some people that means i shut down because i don't want what i know might come of it. this doesn't have to make perfect sense, but it becomes clearer to me what i need to return to and what i don't need more of. yesterday during the earth day festivities after passing something tasty around, i realized i wanted nothing more than a bowl of green beans, more heavy metal, and space to roam around in. today i got my bowl of green beans and a clear nose, and that is how things progress.
there is only one more week left of pocho, which is really frustrating. more beauty follows, but the little one must leave. maybe i can visit him in the shelter until he finds a home, but that is me knowing what i won't soon realize and knowing it is knowing it and doing it still. sometimes benches and rocking chairs are not as good as you think they are before you sit down, and sometimes they are just the best. and sometimes though you have work to do, it's just not the right time because you have a kitten doing wheelies on your lap and work will always be there but wheeling kittens won't.